Long Time

So maybe it has been a long time. I always say I'm going to be good at keeping these things updates and then I don't. Life has still been pretty wonderful. I love my job, I have the best fiancé ever, doesn't get too much better.

I am beginning to see that yet again, when things are going well for us, or I should say for me, it's like God is put on the back burner. I mean ever since before I left for Singapore this summer I've been struggling in my faith. I mean don't get me wrong, I love my Jesus and I have no doubt in my faith at all. I've just been fustrated because I KNOW God loves me, I KNOW that He is always with me, I KNOW that I am His child, I KNOW all the things He has done in my life so far that are amazingly unbelievable. All these things I KNOW, but for so long I haven't felt it. I KNOW He's there but I just don't feel it. I can't help but wonder why. I mean, I'm sure I'm being taught something, I'm growing but it has just been so long since I feel like I have really connected with Him. Is it because I've gotten caught up in the goodness that is life? Is it that I'm distracted trying to do way too many things? Maybe I'm trying to hard...is that even possible? I think it was my Pastor that said one time that God is our best friend and we should treat Him that way. What do we do with our best friend? We hang out with them on a regualr basis, we tell them EVERYTHING, and we let them know what they mean to us. So why is it that we do all these things when things are hard but when things are good it just stops? We should treat Jesus like our best friend. I should treat Jesus like my best friend.

Moving on...

What has happened since I last posted? Andy and I have decided we are getting married at his home church in Wilmington, NC. We also think we are going to hold the reception at Poplar Grove Plantation, probably in the Cultural Arts Center...or the barn. Haha...I mean think about weddings you've been to. You always wonder what you should wear, what kind of event it will be, and you tend to feel really uncomfortable sometimes. So our goal for this entire wedding, other than keeping it inexpensive, is keeping it extremely casual. Something that everyone can enjoy and be comfortable with. Oh, we've also decided on the Caribbean for the honeymoon. I cannot wait to marry him. I'm seriously the luckiest girl ever. He's leaving for Japan on Monday and will be gone for 3 weeks. He called today asking if I would meet him half-way for dinner tomorrow and it felt like he was asking me to marry him all over again. If I were a star, when I'm with him I could potentially light up the entire sky. I'm so grateful for God and His perfect timing.

I could keep going, I have plenty of tales to be told about work, the kids, and things like poo...but maybe another day. It will give me more reason to blog on here.